LOL

There are a lot of things that I love about my husband. He is kind, thoughtful, smart, fun and caring. And while I am always mindful of how wonderful he is, there are certain things he does that makes me love him even more.

He laughs out loud.

I know, you are thinking so? But I love it. I love that when he is watching TV, by himself, he laughs out loud. Not just a smile, but a full on laugh. I love it. I love how he can just let go of any insecurities and laugh. He is an amazing person with lots of stresses in his life and he can still stop and laugh out loud.

Esq.

WOW!!!! I passed the Ca Bar. The hardest test in the county. It has been over a week and I am still in shock. I have done lots and accomplished lots in my life, but this is the ONE thing that I really feel like good about. I feel like I did something amazing. It feels really good.

So, what’s next? To tell you the truth, I am not really sure. I am continuing to work on the campaign, and I am clerking at the Orange County County Counsel. I have also applied for an attorney position at the South Cause Air Quality Management District. So, please think positive thoughts. Ideally, I will just work on the campaign for the next year and then when Melissa wins, I will work for her either here in OC or in Sacramento. We are in a bit of a holding pattern, but all is well.

We are going to sit back and enjoy life and see what the next chapter brings us.

I want to say thank you to everyone for all of their love and support. There is no way I could have done without them.

Better late than never...

Wow, its been months since i have posted. i realized that it takes a lot of energy to sit down and reflect...:)

So, as most of you know, eli took the bar last feb. and got his results in May. Of course, he PASSED!!!!! I never had any doubts about it. But I know that he was really relieved. It was a great night. He got his results the night before graduation. Graduation was good. It was crazy hot. Those robs were heavy...(see pics below) It was a good weekend. My family came out and we spent the weekend together. So, its official, neither one of us is in school anymore. As long as we have know each other we have been students. Real life is upon us.

After graduation, I started studying for the. I have to tell you, that is THE most grueling thing I have ever done. It was exhausting!!! We started studying on May 18 and took the bar the last week of July. Please dont ask me how I feel about it. To be honest with you...I am not really sure. Some parts felt good and others felt like crap. Results dont come out until Nov. And thats fine with me.

July 1, Eli started his new job. He is working for a special education law firm. It is a small firm and he loves it. He loves the work and the people in the office. Overall the transition from student to lawyer has been a smooth one. He just got his own office. :)

As for me, I have been hanging out. Being a house wife. I have to say, I really like staying home. I am clerking 3 days a week at the Orange County, County Counsel. Its just part time, which i perfect because it leaves me lots of time to relax. Also, I am volunteering on a political campaign. Her name is Melissa Fox and she is running for Ca state Assembly.

So, thats our life in a but shell.

I am going to make a effort to write more.







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I need to write

So much has been going on...and i know i need to do some writing...and i will...soon...i need to take some time and reflect and take note of the past 6 months or so...so, this week...i am promising myself that i will write.

To Be Loved

Its true what they say...there are few things in life better than being loved. I love being loved. I know that sounds silly, but it is true.

My husband loves and appricaites me everyday. I just want to give 1 small example. As many of you know, Eli spent the last 6 weeks studying for the ca state bar exam. For those of you dont know what that means, it means that he spent 10-12 hours a day, 7 days a week, preparing for the test. That is enough to make the calmest person an little frazzled. He had a couple of moments, but over all...smooth sailing. I did what I could to support him and be there for him, but nothing any wife wouldnt do in the same situation. That it why I was so suprised and touched when after the last day of test he told me he had gotten ME a present. And his reason....for being such a good wife while he studied for the bar...I was stunned. He got me a radio for the shower. Just because he thought I would like it.

He is an amazing person. He loves me everyday just the way I need to be loved. He lets me love him everyday.

I am truly thankful for the forces that brought us together.

Ahhh...to be loved.

Dread

I have this overwhelming since of dread.
It just came over me.
I am not sure if it comes from the fact that I dont feel good about my midterm, or that eli is taking the biggest test of life over the next 3 days, or that I am home alone for the next 3 days or that I am worried about money.
All i know is that I cant seem to shake this feeling.

I want to do something

I want to do something spontaneous.
I want to do something without thinking.
I want to do something without planning.
I want to do SOMETHING.